Repentance

Interesting to observe how it is not so much change of intellectual opinions or ideas that is involved with real religion but it's a change in self-awareness, awareness of lying, awareness of self-justifying, awareness of one's condition, one's sin; change in one's ability to recognize something higher than oneself, to distinguish the Creator from the creation.

What I mean is it's not something you can find by noodling around with ideas. It's psychological and emotional development, and psychological 'turning' or internal 're-orientating' which happens less by one's will and more by God's will (which includes being aided by the living, piercing word of God).