The walking of your soul

"Since the hearts of our first parents flew out at their eyes, on the forbidden fruit, and a night of darkness was thereby brought on the world, their posterity have a natural disease which Solomon calls, "The wandering of the desire," or, as the word is, "The walking of your soul," Eccl. 6:9. This is a sort of diabolical trance, wherein the soul traverses the world; feeds itself with a thousand airy nothings; snatches at this and the other created excellency, in imagination and desire; goes here, and there, and everywhere, except where it should go. And the soul is never cured of this disease, until conquering grace brings it back to take up its everlasting rest in God through Christ—but until this be, if man were set again in paradise, the garden of the Lord, all the pleasures there would not keep him from looking, yes, and leaping over the hedge a second time." - Thomas Boston, Human Nature in its Fourfold State, pg. 75, Banner of Truth edition

The difficulty is to actually observe it in yourself. Observe it in real time. And you need a language to see it. If you fear man you will never encounter or learn such a language. You will remain shallow. Churchianity is a shallow school. Another way to say that is it is a man-fearing school. Fear God alone, and find a real school.